huii
16 yrs old
7 jan 91
huii <3 hanyong(dear)
huii miss hanyong(dear)
dun like-->liars,ghost,alone
wanna to be dote and love by someone who really cares
huii <3 darling(jenny)and meimei(hann)too =)
u all may think that giving him a chance is so damm bloody easy but have u all think abt hw am i going to believe him again...nw i really dun dare to believe anyone even any of my frnz le i am really scared le. Why cant i jus diappear into the thin air and nv appear again. Nw i hate myself i hate myself for doing everything haiz i hate nw de me. maybe i jus mia from next week bahx...i jus contact with my darling(jenny) and my family and no more ppl le bahx.
Maybe this is the best solution for giving me time to think abt it bahx. maybe for the time being i will not msg anyone call anyone and receiving any calls from anyone bahx but the msg u all send me i maybe will look at it bahx. I think i really nid time to think abt everything bahx. Sometimes i have been thinking of ending my life jus like that and nv wanna to think of any thing le maybe die is the best solution bahx...i noe u all will say me stupid say me idiot say why must i be such a fool to do all this cox i can really tell u that at any moment of my time i may jus collapse and giving up my life jus like that bahx.
I felt so tired of living le i wanna leave with my daddy and nv come back le i miss my daddy deeply!!! During the trip to KL i saw hw jenny and his daddy live happily together i was so envious feel so sadd feel so happi for her. As she can joke with her daddy, share cake with her daddy, cook mee for her daddy, play with his daddy and pekcek her daddy but for me i cant even do anything i cant even scold my daddy nw. Cant even scold him for leaving us so soon and cant even go overseas with him anymore. Evertime go out with jenny they all, i jus feel so envious. haiz
i noe that u have done lots of thing for me but when i nid u, u were not there onli yewjun was there and i really feel so sadd b4 i break with u i jus onli treat yewjun as my frn but as i broke up with u..he stays with me and listens to wad i have to say he listens and tell me not to be so sad. U all may think that yewjun is a bad guy and u all maybe thinking that izzit that he make me wanna break with u. The ans is NO!. He still got ask me to giv u another chance but i am the one who dun wanna giv u the chance de not him influencing me de. so dun mistaken him pls. U msg me and say maybe he has motive to get close to me but i also canot believe one side onli u get wad i mean. U all keep thinking that he is a bad guy but he have already change and soohao i also noe that u have change le but i cant bring myself to believe in u..u understand?? haiz. I noe that the both of u are treating me very good and is good until i dunno wad to do. Sometimes i really wanna beg both of u not to treat me so good i dun deserve the good that u all treat me and why cant u all be the bad guy why must i be the bad guy... Why u all dun wan treat me bad so that i wont be so guilty haiz
nw i really nid a period of time to think le after i finish thinking i really hope there will still be a prince waiting for me. Hope that prince will dote me, care for me and love me and dun eva hurt me again or else i really dunno wad i will be if being hurt again.. rite till here le bb bahx hope to be love and dote by someone who really cares!!!!!
