xiiaohuii

2007-02-07T16:08:00.000-08:00

i wan to be wif u no matter wad, no matter when and no matter hw. i love u !! i wan to live like this foreva, wif u in my world and nt leaving me =x

i am truely happy nw when i am with u !! all i wanna say is i love u , 我爱你!!!

2007-02-05T23:04:00.001-08:00

why am i like tat? sobs ! i wanna change i really wanna to kick off tat attitude of mine !! i hate it !!! i hope tat u wont leave me. =(

i dunno hw am i gonna tell u hw i feel for u but i really wan u to be by my side =(

and the one is u!! han yong !!!

i really nid a guy who really dote, love and care for me no matter wad =(
if u dun mind, i wan tat guy to be u (hy)

i miss dear(hy) and daddy !!!!!

2007-02-05T23:04:00.000-08:00

2007-02-03T00:25:00.000-08:00

just to come in here and tell u I MISS U !!! no matter wad, next time i gonna hug u b4 u go home !!!! i miss dear and i miss daddy a lot !!!!!

2007-01-28T21:55:00.000-08:00

i miss u wors =x haha.. todae actually thought can meet u but u say u lazy to go out haha so nvm =) then me nw very sian like nth to do. wan watch tv also nth to watch like that. sian. jus nw my korkor say that after new yr he wan use our ang bao money to buy com then i was thinking that, i also seldom use then i pay then is like useless wors and not fair too !!! i jus wanna use com everydae but i jus wanna use for 2 to 3 hrs and thats all i nid. this is not too much lor. haiz i think i will not be sharing the money to buy the com le lor cox i also seldom use.

if korkor buy the com then next time i reach home then korkor use lappy meimei use com then wad i do ?!?!?!? sian if is like that then i dun wan come back home so early le. i would rather pei my dear ! =p haha misses my dear lots wors =x

new yr coming le...then during chinese new yr i think i will be very sian haha cox like no place to go not like last time got alot of places to go de but nw no more le !! so sian haha but nvm nw got my dear pei me so nvm =p !!

think rite till here le bahx haha!! then i go le take care all !! lastly.. I MISS DADDY AND I MISS MY DEAR A LOT !!!! and i will rmb the dae 26 jan07 !!!

2007-01-22T22:53:00.000-08:00

stepping forward to a new path le...

2007-01-21T22:51:00.000-08:00

i hope for the best !!! hope hope hope.. sry for my anyhw type and cox lots of trouble sry!!! maybe for me i jus disappear for a period of time cox i have difficulty facing u all !! sry!! hope for the best for my valentine's day!! LOL but also canot hope too much lol!!! when will i meet my future guy ?? erm let me think...maybe soon maybe later haha not sure..

sian lor cox my darling to be the bad guy again sian sry ar darling !!! hope that u can make peace with her bahx dun think so much le ! take care wors darling !! i wanna meet my future guy, hope he can teach me in my sch work teach me hw to do lots of things haha! wish too much le..huii dun dream too much liaox !! hope for the best in my life bahx take care all bb!!! MISS DADDY !!!!

2007-01-07T22:09:00.001-08:00

happi bdae to me !!! haha. Why everytime also gt ppl keep forcing me to something that i dunno hw to do or dunno wad to do. Is nt i dun wan to say or dun feel like saying is i really really dunno wad is the ans u understand !! haiz maybe u all dun understand bahx take care all nitex nitex.

todae so happi cox is my bdae !! haha nitex !!!

2007-01-05T18:09:00.000-08:00

i am really very disappointed in myself lor..i jus dunno why i keep making ppl sad haiz. why u wan go make ur hand i really feel so angry for u lor haiz up to u la....

2007-01-01T22:58:00.000-08:00

actually i already noe that u waited at my house downstairs that is why i dun wan go home and that is why i dun wan see u... u make me hate u so much nw and i dun wanna giv u another chance le no more !!! u understand.

nw then i noe that when i am with u it is so pressurising and make me so difficult to live with u. U no nid to noe who tell me de jus think that i saw ur blog bahx. All the things u rite in ur blog jus make me feel hate u !!! haiz all i can say is i hate it !!! hate the way u treat me nw !!! i hate u !!!!!

2006-12-28T19:22:00.001-08:00

soohao and yewjun i noe i have been a bad gal that makes u all think that i may have cheated u 2.

soohao-soohao when i wif u i really very happy but after when we break i seldom smile seldom laugh. i was like really in my deep side of depress and i was really so sadd. but those few daes i really thks to yewjun for pei-ing me, he pei me go lower pierce reservoir and see stars pei me go amk centre there play swing listens to wad is say and listens to wad i wish. he really pei me all dae. and i was really happy =)) really !!!

yewjun- yewjun i really must thk u for accompany me all this few daes i was really very happy but i think u nw maybe will hate me bahx, maybe u will be thinking that i may cheat u and bluff all ur feelings and time bahx..if u think it like this i really have nth to say le the onli thing i can say is sorry!!! u let me feel happy when with u and nv think of the sadd things of soohao.

me nw is in the state of confusion and i really dunno wad to do and hope soohao and yewjun can see this post and really noe hw i really feel. i did feel like ending my life on the 26 of dec 06...i really did wanna to do that. haiz u all will say why am i so stupid so silly and so idiot haiz i am sorry if i make u all worried for me !!! haiz sorry !!!! miss my daddy badly !!!!!!

2006-12-28T19:22:00.000-08:00

2006-12-25T17:24:00.000-08:00

u all may think that giving him a chance is so damm bloody easy but have u all think abt hw am i going to believe him again...nw i really dun dare to believe anyone even any of my frnz le i am really scared le. Why cant i jus diappear into the thin air and nv appear again. Nw i hate myself i hate myself for doing everything haiz i hate nw de me. maybe i jus mia from next week bahx...i jus contact with my darling(jenny) and my family and no more ppl le bahx.

Maybe this is the best solution for giving me time to think abt it bahx. maybe for the time being i will not msg anyone call anyone and receiving any calls from anyone bahx but the msg u all send me i maybe will look at it bahx. I think i really nid time to think abt everything bahx. Sometimes i have been thinking of ending my life jus like that and nv wanna to think of any thing le maybe die is the best solution bahx...i noe u all will say me stupid say me idiot say why must i be such a fool to do all this cox i can really tell u that at any moment of my time i may jus collapse and giving up my life jus like that bahx.

I felt so tired of living le i wanna leave with my daddy and nv come back le i miss my daddy deeply!!!
During the trip to KL i saw hw jenny and his daddy live happily together i was so envious feel so sadd feel so happi for her. As she can joke with her daddy, share cake with her daddy, cook mee for her daddy, play with his daddy and pekcek her daddy but for me i cant even do anything i cant even scold my daddy nw. Cant even scold him for leaving us so soon and cant even go overseas with him anymore. Evertime go out with jenny they all, i jus feel so envious. haiz

i noe that u have done lots of thing for me but when i nid u, u were not there onli yewjun was there and i really feel so sadd b4 i break with u i jus onli treat yewjun as my frn but as i broke up with u..he stays with me and listens to wad i have to say he listens and tell me not to be so sad. U all may think that yewjun is a bad guy and u all maybe thinking that izzit that he make me wanna break with u. The ans is NO!. He still got ask me to giv u another chance but i am the one who dun wanna giv u the chance de not him influencing me de. so dun mistaken him pls. U msg me and say maybe he has motive to get close to me but i also canot believe one side onli u get wad i mean. U all keep thinking that he is a bad guy but he have already change and soohao i also noe that u have change le but i cant bring myself to believe in u..u understand?? haiz. I noe that the both of u are treating me very good and is good until i dunno wad to do. Sometimes i really wanna beg both of u not to treat me so good i dun deserve the good that u all treat me and why cant u all be the bad guy why must i be the bad guy... Why u all dun wan treat me bad so that i wont be so guilty haiz

nw i really nid a period of time to think le after i finish thinking i really hope there will still be a prince waiting for me. Hope that prince will dote me, care for me and love me and dun eva hurt me again or else i really dunno wad i will be if being hurt again.. rite till here le bb bahx hope to be love and dote by someone who really cares!!!!!

2006-12-11T00:59:00.000-08:00

on that dae u shouted at me..the seed that u planted and became a tree but u jus so cruel and cut it off and dun even care that it is a living thing anot...nw no more me le no more fairy tales no more smile no more laughter from me le bahx! can i still giv u another chance ??? i dunno !!! haiz i really dunno..supposingly u are my everything but nw i have nth. No more love from anyone no more care from anyone and no more smile from me le bahx...i'm sorry to break ur heart sorry !! i guess i should not have appear in this world bahx. u all dun understand the feeling when there is no fatherly love u all jus dun understand..no more support from daddy it is so hopeless and it feel like u cant do anything rite or do it well haiz i dunno hw to say ar haiz wan an le bahx

2006-12-08T22:34:00.000-08:00

In my world there isnt any fairy tales le...all gone le no more le...wad can i do??? waiting to be rot...i hate u !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-12-07T11:35:00.000-08:00

u kou kou sheng sheng ask me not to leave u but yet u are doing all those things that make me wanna leave u !!! WTH !!! Haiz why u like that. U are the one who makes me change my thinking, mind, heart and soul lor. Haiz why u like that !!!! U say u love me u miss me but why isnt there any action to prove...why u onli concern abt ur maple and not me todae u came into msn u jus say "hiyee dear" and ur status set as away and u are playing maple.

U seldom talks to me and u jus keep playing maple wad is the point of staying together like u dun care ! It hurts u noe !!! U dun even noe cox now we seldom talks liaox is not becox i nv call u is that maybe u are so into maple that u forgotten all abt me !!! Haiz u jus treating me like a transparent de glass and u dun even bother to call me !!! Haiz disappointing !!! Wad if ytd i nv msg u that i canot buy fone i can confirm that u dun even bother to msg me at all cox in ur mind, heart and soul u can onli rmb maple and chiong ur lvl and forget all abt me !!!!

U dun even care dun even bother !!! sobsobs onli tell me to rmb to eat my meals and wad else ?? All promises that guys make are meant to be broken and wads the point of making promises to me !! wads the point !!! waiting for u to treat me well is like waiting for a dead person to revive..unbelievable and sadd!!! haiz miss daddy !!! love u daddy !!!!!!

2006-12-06T20:46:00.000-08:00

sobsobs todae cannot buy fone sadd...thought todae can buy but in the end cant !!! arggh sadd still nid to wait until next week sadd i wan K800i !!! i wan that fone i wan it nw sadd !!!!! sian i very sian todae after my work i have nth to do and i do nth for 4 to 5 hrs is like so sian. then at msn chat with frnz lor haha but also very sian

miss my sch life haha haiz I WAN TO FLY KITE !!!!!!! i wan it nw... i wan so mani things in my life but i jus cant get it !!!!!! i wan fly kite i wan K800i sobsobs

2006-12-06T14:38:00.000-08:00

yox...haha jus finish eating my lunch onli so FULL haha. So sian todae grace and serene both nv come onli left me have linda so we bought our lunch back to office and eat. I ate cai fan haha means got a lot of different kinds of dishes then can choose de haha.

Idiot lor ytd korkor make me cry like hell then make me so pekcek, cox ytd that idiot sui fong say i did wrong thing then say say say from this corner of the office say to the other corner of the office. Is like WTH hate this kind of person lor onli small small thing then must TELL the whole world like that. No ppl tell me hw i noe that i did it the wrong wae rite idiot !!! Cox korkor wanna watch naruto then keep asking me to stop playing and let them watch, at work play already so angry so pekcek then come home still nid to say by ppl this really make me stress out lor !!! Then in the end went to room and lock the door and cry ! LOL haha cox too stress le bahx then after that i went to amk to buy my breakfast then on the wae going home met my frn haha then we talk talk lor. Then after talking then jiu go home liaox lor haha...we talk a lot haha. Kaes rite till here le haha next time then rite take care all miss and love daddy !!! heehee

2006-12-04T23:27:00.000-08:00

hihi i am back to post again heehee. I suddenly felt something is missing but wad izzit?? I really dunno wors..haiz wad am i suppose to do.

Todae my darling (jenny) pei me eat lunch haha so happi even my darling would make an effort to pei me eat lunch but u dun make any effort to it this make me damm disappointing lor. After eating we went walk walk in amara shopping centre then after that darling jiu go home liaox then after my work i meet up with my sis (hann) then go meet darling and her sis on the wae. We went to darling de house for our dinner cox todae mummy have no time to cook for us as she have to work late in the market so we have to settle our dinner ourself . Haha but we jus settle it at darling de house haha so fang bian... LOL!

After mummy finish work liaox then she went to darling de house and fetch us home b4 going home we went to buy dinner for my korkor and my mummy too and we bought SATAY too hahaha yumyum with the gravy YUMYUM!! haha. Hann sae that K800i nw got promotion then is better to buy nw rather then later cox is cheaper nw but the problem is that mummy maybe dun let me buy it nw haiz i also dunno i wan my K800i wors !!! then like a lot of ppl taking K800i like that hahah cox todae when i went to work then i saw a lot of ppl taking that fone then i see le so JEALOUS cox i also wann !!!! But i still nid to wait till this weekend but cant wait le ar !! haha

korkor when can u quit ur smoking, smoking is bad for health then is bad for us too cox we are second hand smoker then we may die faster then u wors so for our sake dun smoke pls.. i really dun like ppl who smoke lor..everytime smell the smoke i will keep coughing then really makes me very difficult to breath then i hate that kind of feelings lor then feeling is like choking u !!! is like WTH !!!!! haha

dardar maybe i think too much le bahx but is like the wae we talk on the fone have change and is like not like u and not like me wors haiz i dunno how to explain myself it seems that u dun care abt me anymore that is my feelings but maybe i am in the wrong or maybe i am not lor haiz i am really confuse rite nw...no no no is everyday i am confusing all the way !!! haiz rite till here le lor gonna go sleep le or else tmr canot wake up and go to work liaox haha wan an everyone nitex nitex !!! wan an daddy !!! love u miss u daddy !!! take care !!! =)

2006-12-02T23:51:00.000-08:00

Felt so miserable nw really sobs i really dunno wad can i do liaox haiz...it seems like we dun use to talk on the fone like we used to be. So weird and is like nth to talk abt like that. That time u come fetch me and i really very very happi to see u but all i wish is that the first thing u would do is to hug me and say u miss me but u end up asking me when did i buy my shirt then i was totally sian diao thought u will giv me a lovely kiss on my face haha maybe i tink too much le bahx. But i really hope that u would hug me tight i really scared that i will leave u one dae and i really dun wan it to happen really !! hope that u will understand me bahx.. Dear is not i wanna quarell with u de wors is like i work there some how got a bit stress cox all of them are adult and non of them are like me as a kid. You nv even understand me while i was working there. Even i got tell u that there got one old lady like dun like me then everytime giv me face then is like if u were there then i think u also wun stand her de lor.. Is like she is giving those fucking attitude sry to say that but i am really damm angry abt this lor. Everytime she gives me the face and make me felt so guilty and i dun like it. I am jus a temp worker working there not even a permanent worker lor i hate u lor!!!

Darling and hann thks for being there for me all along really thks and all my frns too bahx.
U all may think that i am jus running away frm my problems but i can honestly tell u that i dun even dare to face it i have no guts to face it, i really cant accept wad have happen in my life and totally destroy my attitude towards anything even everyone in my life. I have no rite to love anyone and to be love, i have no rite to do anything no rite to do anything or everything. U all may think that i am jus stubborn and do not wan to accept anything..maybe u all are rite bahx. Cox u all dun even noe hw is it feel to lost ur daddy u all dunno hw is it feel that u have no father love u all jus dunno...i really feel so bad i really feel so bad abt it. I felt so regret that i nv tell my daddy not to work too much and rest more but if i tell he also wont listen so wads the point. I wan him to rest more and pei us more but he jus keep working haiz b4 he go he nv even spoken anything to us and nv even open his mouth at all not even speaking to us. He jus keep making sound and somehw tell us that he is very uncomfortable. I hate my grandma !! I hate her..she nv even cares abt my daddy and she even tell her own daughter(my aunt) that my daddy have a lots of money wah i really hate that !!! At the dae we gonna send my daddy off and she nv even drop any tears nt even A drop !!! and all my aunt de tears are all crocodile tears they are so fake nw i dun even wanna step into my grandma house anymore !! i hate that house i hate all of them they all are so fake !!!Everytime they got problems my daddy sure lend a hand to them but my daddy got problem they all tends to run miles away frm us and nv lend a hand to us i hate it. They are in need of money my daddy lends them but he nv even return the money to us..not a small amount wors is quite a big sum.

My daddy de hospital bill was so high and not even any aunt or grandma is helping us to pay the bill onli my mother side de ppl is nicer that side de ah yi and grandmother and grandfather is the best then care for us help us and nv think of paying back. My daddy side de ppl thinks that we all have a lot of money but we have already spent all the money on my daddy's hospital bill they also dunno the cost is hw much!! sobs i am really sadd that i have this kind of relatives too THEY ALL ARE SO FAKE SO I HATE THEM ALL !!!

2006-11-30T22:54:00.000-08:00

one by one...my love ones are leaving me...one by one !!

2006-11-30T21:30:00.000-08:00

jus nw went to kbox with frn but it end up me and hao quarrel again..i hate it ='(( i hate myself for doing all this things i hate it !! after that me frm amk central walk all the way home alone....i wanna to be alone but i felt scared while i was on my wae home but wad can i do. i canot do anything so jus walk home lor. suddenly i felt so lost and really lost..i dunno where i am walking, i simply jus keep walking. i dun feel like going home i dun feel like looking at my families faces. i have to be strong in front of them, everytime joke laugh and makes me feel happi in front of them. i dunno who to tell my problems to i jus dunno who can i go to. i really really really really misses my daddy very much..i wan him back !!! sobsobs i jus wanna to be dote and love by someone who really really cares !!!!! sobss ='(((

2006-11-30T20:33:00.000-08:00

i hate u sobs u dun noe everything!!!! u dun noe !!!! haiz..sobsobs

2006-11-29T23:36:00.000-08:00

u dun even noe that since my daddy is gone i almost cry every nitex..cox i simply cant sleep every dae haiz...i almost everydae also got cry but i also dunno can tell who ask who talk to who i jus dunno who to go to !! monday i really cant sleep jus keep crying but i jus cant contact anyone. i call jenny but in the end i called the wrong no. then nvm i call soohao but he sleeping but i dun mind lor but i can onli find this few ppl when i am in pain haiz..i am really confuse lor wad i can do..nth. thinking of ending my life and thats it but i noe that if i end my life it is such a STUPID thing haiz i really dunno wad can i sae liaox. you also dunno that every nitex i have to eat the flu pills so that i can sleep better cox that medi can make ppl sleep easily but i noe that taking too much of that is harmful to my body but i really dunno wad can i do liaox haiz...maybe i am meant to live a life like that bahx...

2006-11-28T17:51:00.001-08:00

should i giv up or should i not giv up on u haiz..wad can i do. i am really damm confuse nowadays !!! i am gonna go buy K800i =x haha..try try new de brand haha so sian. now working but nth to do...i am working until 22 Dec then i not working le haha i am gonna enjoy my last week of holidaes heehee =P i'm gonna go out everydae!!! haha so sian........

2006-11-28T00:52:00.000-08:00

i hate u !!!! dun eva wanna talk to u again !!! i noe i am attitude but it is becox the wae u treat me makes me feel so uncomfortable and i hate it !!!! u dun understand me not even the basic !!! i hate u !!!!!!!!

2006-11-28T00:49:00.000-08:00

Its been a long time that i nv post le.. cox i forgot all abt my user and password lol. Tmr i'm gonna start work tmr le and i really miss u dardar. I noe that u sure will be very lonely when i gonna go work but i also hope that i can pei u but sorry ar. If u think of me jus look at my pics kaes? i also not sure that u will see this post notx..if u saw it tagg me kaes =)) dardar i sure will miss u de =). And u will also noe that i will surely miss a guy very very very very much de. i really hope that he can see me go work and bring me go work as well. I also really misses my papa !! i miss u (daddy) =( sobs. Dardar i noe that tmr is our anni but i am sorry that i cant pei u but i also wish that u will be happi. Dardar happi 1 yr and 3 months anni =)). Dui bu qi that i cant pei u du guo. Hope u can find ur job asap bahx. I noe that u are playing maple now so i better not fan u..i scared later i pekcek u that u nv talk to me then sure quarelle de kaes then hope u dun mind =)) okay liaox lor me rite till here le next time then post again miss u dardar and miss u daddy !! i wish to see u both !! sobss =( nitex nitex

2005-11-28T15:01:00.000-08:00

silently in pain all i can sae haiz..wad can i do and wad can i sae to help u feel comfortable and will not make u pek cek again...i am really damm confuse lor haiz wad can i do...i neo that i am a very weird person and i neo that sometimes i am damm annoying , irritating , fustrating to treat with all i can sae is i sorry guys and sorry laogong...wanted to tell u that i got hit by the cans drinks but u were sleeping so dun fan u le lor haiz...i'm sorry...

2005-11-20T00:02:00.000-08:00

now jus feel like crying i dunno why haiz maybe is ur nick bahx...ur nick really make me damm disappointed and sadd or i can sae is i am really really really sadd haiz sobsob but wad else can i sae...i dunno.
u also nv tell me wad actually happen i would rather you fu ni xiang you nan wo dang (in chinese) haiz...
i neo sometimes u make me sadd or pek cek u will sae sorry to me but i nv eva even blame u...i forgive u cox u said sorry to me if i really make u pek cek now i am really really really sorry
me now promise u...really promise no matter wad happen i will tell u and u must also tell me okie sorry abt i nv tell u de thingy sorry...i promise i will not give that sickerning face to you will alwaes present with a happi face okie...haiz saw that nick u written really make me heartbroken and it is very pain i really dun wish u to rite this haiz rite till here le sorry...i miss u alot..lurve you..wo hen xiang ni..one word..woaini

2005-11-13T15:04:00.000-08:00

u say u will nv leave me alone but in the end u left me alone in the phone make me damm disappointed, sadd, angry and pek cek. and i think u will neo if i am pek cek wad i will do rite...haiz . i dun like the person who is talking to me to be so quiet i jus dun like it if there is nothing to talk abt i would rather hang up cox i really dun like the feeling. the feeling jus making me sadd and disappointed haiz...dun wish to lose u sobsob...woaini

2005-11-13T12:53:00.000-08:00

haiz feel so disappointed lor...i am really scared that one dae u really will leave me..todae i dream that u left me and u have a new stead le and i cry like siao lor haiz and when i wake up i found tears in my eyes haiz...i am really very scared lor but wad can i do but no matter wad i will hold on tight and nv eva let go de..we have gone through so many feng feng yu yu (in chinese) i wish that we will not give up so easily..all i can say i do really lurve u alot wo zhen de hen ai ni..bu neng mei you ni zai wo sheng bian..woaini yiibeiizii

2005-10-07T22:23:00.000-07:00

Long time no rite le wor...sian nothing to do so sian. Then lets talk abt todae bahx...lol...i fell then i hurt my hand then those pokes al got into my hand and it was like OMG it was pain lol...then still got blood come out wor but a little bit only hahax...sorry make u worry, bleahz i promise i will take good care of myself de then u also hor. Now my hand still got a little pain but awhile more will be okie le hee...this coming 2 dae i will surely miss u alot de wor haiz but if i canot pei u..the poon i give u will still accompany u de okie hee then u take care wor miiss uu lotts...wish can see u now...woaiinii yiibeiizii...xiiaohuii aii xiiaohao yiibeiizii...yong yuan bu bian...cant affort to lose u...byez...laopo aii laogong

2005-09-25T13:28:00.000-07:00

hiyee long time no rite le cox cant use...erm..wad am i going to talk abt lehx...think think think. erm talk abt ytd de bahx, ytd bbq was okie lor and can sae is quite fun bahx lolZ then there are only hotdogs and crab meat sticks, syrup...i think only like that bahx we brought radio there and we play with a cd hee it was cool but alot of mosquito and i got biten too. And when i was there the most pek cek de thing is my mummy ask me to reach home by 11 pm! WAD THE HELL IS THAT...then i was so pek cek that i cry out but sometimes i cry out i will feel better and i am not blaming u. do u neo why i cry the second time cox...when u ask me wad happen, i really wanted to tell u but i jus cant open my f*** mouth it jus kept closing and u jus walk away i neo u are really pek cek abt me so u decided to walk away but at that time u walk away i really feel so sad, so sad that i really cry out but i dun meant to do this all i can sae is sorry a really big sorry. it is all my fault haiz...i promise u that i will change my weird weird de behaviour...i promise. Laogong i miss u very much wor really hope can see u todae but too bad that i todae cant see u and i do really miss u alot...i miss u frm the bottom of my heart and i jus miss u...okie le i rite till here liaox most of all stay happy forget all the unhappiness and start afresh dae miss laogong , lurve laogong , wanna see laogong now muacksss

2005-09-18T22:30:00.000-07:00

dear i miss u alot wor...i nv thought of quarrelling with u de haiz okie lor dun wanna talk abt it le or else i maybe will feel so sad hee.Hahax now then i really realise that my mummy really change le but i would rather prefer now de mummy hee but haiz jus feel so bad at times lor aiyoyo...haiz nothing to sae le lor gtg le bb...huii lurve hao yibeizi

2005-09-13T18:03:00.000-07:00

Dun feel like staying in this house...feel so cold and lonely...why i jus canot have a warm and cosy house and a wonderful home to stay in. Everytime when i reach home mummy jus scold me even if i have score a better result for her to see but she jus kept scolding i really dunno wad is on her mind. Eva since my daddy have left us, she has totally change into another person which we really cant regonise her as our mummy...really feel so sad abt it. But i also cant do anything this is wad she chose to do i also cant force her to do wad i wan so i jus heck care bahx. Why i have such a sucky mummy...haiz i also dunno. She bend my frnz from coming my house but she did not bend my mei de frnz why izzit like that...she is so bias man, she only treat my meimei and korkor good but not me like i am not her child like that haiz dunno la really feel so sad and confuse. Then now after sch must go back home or else she will come and bring me after sch and confiscate my hp and dun let me use and i canot go anywhere and canot go with anyone haiz...everytime i will think why she wanna give birth to me and bring me so much unhappiness and i have to bring my own happiness for myself with my own bare hands...without my laogong with me i am sure that i am in a world full of darkness and without any stars or moon or light that brighten up my life only when he enters my life...i can see many stars that twinkle in my sky when in the dark, see the sun that shinning on me in the dae accompany me throughout my daes without leaving or wad so eva and jus staying beside me whenever and wherever. Give me warmth in the cold daes, that makes me feel comfortable and nice.He colours my life with colours pencils..using many different colours that brighten up my world...can see all the smiles everywhere...nv eva thought of having a sad face. Maybe when i am facing u...u really dunno how deep i lurve u...u will wonder how deep i lurve u ? I can say is as deep as the ocean and u may not neo how deep izzit but i can tell u that it is surely very very very very deep and i can say is I Lurve U from the bottom of my heart. And as u every time say i simply rocks ur world and i will say u...totally rockss my world hee really miss u alot wor even i see u everydae but i jus simply miss u alot...k lor rite till here le next time then i rite again miss dear...miss daddy...miss jenny...**yibeizi**xiiaohuii("v")xiiaohao**yibeizi**

2005-09-11T21:08:00.000-07:00

i am such a failure?...haiz am i . am i changing to a person which i dunno and a person which many ppl dun like or hate...i have try many times not to think to the bad side le but i jus cant controlled it but i will still try my very very very best not to think abt the bad side haiz. i can see the light in my world of darkness, i can see colours every where , and i will give all my best to get out of that darkness. Laogong i really miss u alot...all i wan is u and jus u and nothing else

2005-09-11T15:22:00.000-07:00

all gone le..not with us le...he has moved away frm us le and nv come back again...i miss u daddy miss u alot...u have move to a place where u belong and we will alwaes think of u and nv eva forget u...u will alwaes be in my heart. cant bear to leave u , daddy . dear i miss u too...i can sae that u are the light in my darkness world..u have brighten up my life and my dae. really miss both of u alot...x i i a o h u i i ("v") x i i a o h a o y i b e i z i...

2005-09-11T01:43:00.000-07:00

dear i really miss u alot wor haiz...sometimes i am really sad that sometimes dear wont tell me anything de haiz...wish u would tell me no matter wad thing or wad happen cox i jus wanna share it with u i dun wan u to hide it in ur hear tand not telling me and it will make me more sad and dissapointed. sad becox if u treated me like that then i will think that u are treating me as a stranger but i neo u wont do that de but i jus feeling sad when u treated me like that. some ppl may say i have atitude problem or maybe i admit that i have some atitude problem. i will try my best to change it haiz...u all alwaes say that i every time think negetively but i try to think positive le but it jus keep going the other way...haiz. am i so irritating or wad haiz...wish that i was not in this world and i will not have so much sad sad de thing but i wan those happy de memories with my laogong and cousin. but i can say that the feelings from me to u will nv eva eva eva change and i will lurve u 4 eva eva eva. if u see this u might get angry then i am sorry, really sorry. i really miss u alot , miss u like crazy...im sorry if i really make u angry or disaapointed. i dun wish to loss u, i already loss my beloved pa , i really dun wish to loss u. so every time when u say u will die i will feel so sad but i am not angry. all i neo is i lurve u alot and i miss u alot too **laopo("v")laogong** xiiaohuii("v")xiiaohao** 4 eva miss ya

2005-09-06T23:33:00.000-07:00

todae i am really happy is like those really really really happy de ! Hee cant forget wad happen todae man...dear u really give me a very big surprise man . When todae dear sae he have something for me and i am totally shock cox he also nv sae he got buy something for me...hehe i am really happy todae man almost cried when receiving the persent...it was so touching wor hahax. Dear i really miss u alot now , tmr, ytd, every year, months, week, daes, hours, min, sec and every moment of my life... all i can sae is I MISS U ALOT DEAR...

2005-09-02T20:58:00.000-07:00

On the thursdae, i went for sun-tanning with christina , liing , xiian , and dear . It was hot wor...hahax but was fun hee . then after the tanning we went to the sea and play hahax the water was very salty wor lolZ...Ytd i no time write so i wrote it todae lor then i got burnt on my skin hahax pain wor...have difficulty to carry bag cox very pain hahax but was fun lor...and we went to the airport too. We went there for maths trail and a bit sian lor on the bus i fell asleep hee but too bad i canot sit with my dear cox he sitting the other bus not the same with me de.I miss my dear alot wor wanna see hiim right now h u i l u r v e h a o 4 e v a ...and u totally brighten up my dae and my life...there are only 2 person that can give me alot of warmth and that is u (dear) and my cousin (jenny) i am really glad that i can meet the both of u in my life and nv regret lurves u all lots man but lurve my dear more hee muacksss...i rite till here le lor next time then i rite again lor byez... h u i l u r v e s h a o

2005-08-29T21:29:00.000-07:00

todaei went to hao de house and liing and xiian also got go then kana scold by my mummy...haiz really hated her when she like that...i would rather prefer my daddy then my mummy...i jus wan my daddy back now. Haiz todae really anry about this lor haiz dun wish to say so much le la haiz me miss my dear alot wor wanna see hiim lehx...dear i miss u alot muacksSsSs , lurve u alwaes...nv regret knowing u and nv regret loving u h u i i l o v e h a o 4 e v a a n d n v e n d . . .

2005-08-25T13:44:00.000-07:00

me now in sch library then very sian wor haiz...dear not here then all dunno go where le then only left me haiz dunno where to go so come library lor then dunno wad to do so come post lor...really sian lehx haiz miss my dear alot...hee i miss jenny (my cousin), dear and my daddy. Now i jus wanna see my dear and thats all if can i also wanna see my daddy but that one surely cannot de lor haiz...i am very sian !! wad can i do...aiyo...sian ar. This morning i abt 5 + like that i wake up cox todae got perform then it is on the stage de wor i very scared lehx haiz dunno wad to do. But in the end i still went up and perform...really nervous wor hahax but dear still pei me till the show ended...he told me not to be scared. Then after that show my leg was shaking then i keep having cold sweat. Then i am dame peiseh hahax. After our show ended then it was dear's class to act but theirs are video de so not so scary hahaha...hee i got something for my dear and it is a surprise so i canot tell here hee...sooner or later he will neo de hee blEahxX. I am really sian man dunno wad to do...!!! hahax junyong jus came to the library and pei me awhile hahax he so good hee my god di wor hahax thx wor hee. Actually i come library is to pei liing or can say is liing pei me lor hahax...wanna see dear now :(...(^(oo)^)(''v'')(^(oo)^) [xiaohuii lurve xiaohao] 4eva....n v e n d

2005-08-23T23:23:00.000-07:00

i really miss my dear and daddy so much haiz...todae dear come me house and liing , xiian, daryl and christina...after that abt 7 + like that then they go home...then i send them to the bus stop and pei them to wait for the bus lor hahax then after they have went up the bus then i went to buy the packets of drinks and a magerine hahax i dunno how to spell hahax...haiz jus now me cry wor haiz one thing is abt my daddy de the other think is abt me dear de haiz. i jus dunno wad happen to me la haiz the feeling that this person give me is very scary haiz really scared to loss hiim man haiz the person is my frnz and i jus dunno wad am i going to do haiz. but i try not to think that that person is not that bad haiz now i am really confuse and scared and this is wad i wanna say bahx haiz. i also dun wish to break the relationship between them, u can say i am sensitive but i am not...u can say is jealous but maybe is a bit bahx haiz jus dun wan to break this relationship lor actually i wanna kept it with myslef de and nv tell others but i decided to tell u lor haiz really lurve u hao muacksss lurve ya alwaes...missya alwaes too

2005-08-21T06:09:00.000-07:00

todae we went to toa paoyoh and pray for my daddy and my grandpa then when we gonna go see my daddy , my eldest aunt started to cry out and i jus could not control it so i started to cry out too. haiz really really miss my daddy haiz...after that we went home lor...miss hao and daddy very muchhhhhh...i dun wan daddy to leave me i wan daddy to be with us till we grow up...i dun wan daddy to leave us with a sick health i would rather he leave us with a good health haiz miss daddy and hao alot haiz...

h a o & h u i i.....n v.....e n d.....

2005-08-20T07:36:00.000-07:00

so sian wor this few dae...haiz tmr mummy bringing us to toapayo to burn offerings to my daddy and my ah gong haiz really miss my daaddy alot...i really hope that he will not leave us and be with us till we are married but that is impossible de la haiz. really miss my daddy lotsss man and missing hao too haiz...maybe i really cant forget wad happen during that few daes bahx...jus could not sleep well that few daes or can say is nv even have a good nitez sleep haiz...nowadaes also dunno why jus could not sleep well think that 100 daes gonna reach le really cant bare to leave my daddy haiz...why is my life like that i really dun like it when someone leaves me and that someone is someone who is very close to me and dote me very much de haiz...but liing say that got someone leaves me and got another someone enter my world and makes me happy...hope that only one will not leave me and be with me 4eva...or else i maybe will be crying over abt my daddy de think for the whole dae bahx but i really dun wish to cry over it again. ok now the sadd sadd de thingy i finish talking liaox then now talk abt the happy thingy lor hee...hahax i jus can say that i am very happy todae hee and todae was fun too got caught in the rain and the whole clothes were all wet hahax but is was fun hee...then after that we went to hao de house and get change to his clothes so that we will not be cold and will not get sick. felt happy with him and nv get to think of those sadd sadd de thingy hee...k rite till here le k nitez nitez h a o & h u i i 4 e v a n v e n d

2005-08-19T06:36:00.000-07:00

todae in sch mrs wee talk abt wad we have done to make our parents happy or make them sad...then suddenly the think keep dashing out of my mine...i tried to let it go but i seems to be very diff. but i really wish that i will not be crying over it again cox i dun wanna let me dear to worry abt me...abt the english lesson and was after sch too so i decided to go canteen and wait for hao but he msg me and told me that he canot meet me le...i was disappointed but is okie then after i finished having me de lunch then i went up to the hall to pratice on the skit and i felt so pei seh man hahax...while i was praticing the skit half way through i went and look for hao in his teacher's home room...really miss hiim much when gonna leave hiim jus wanna be wif hiim and nv get to seperate wif hiim...going home de shi hou really cant bare to leave hiim haiz buti am really glad that i have such a caring , sweet and alot more de dear and all i wanna say is thank you dear lurve u so much h a o & h u i i 4 e v a